Baby Steps In The Dark

So I’m sitting here last night next to my wife looking at my Brooklyn Nets lose the season opener and suddenly the thought of what this faith walk means for Jess and I in the upcoming months pops in my head. It's like a baby taking steps in the dark!!! Have  you ever seen...

a toddler get out of bed in the middle of the night? In that child's mind, every monster, ghost, and things that go bump in the night seem to also wake up and every possible object that could cause you harm seems to jump right in front of your path. That's exactly what walking in faith sometimes felt to me.However, the surprising thing that happened last night was instead of the normal feeling of dread that I normally experience when I reflect on the choices we both made these last two months, a feeling of unimaginable joy flooded my heart. Normally when people talk about taking a step of faith, they usually highlight the fact that you are walking into the unknown and that all your trust is in God who make sure you don’t all. Where I believe all of that to be true and I certainly feel like I am in the middle of midnight surrounded by the darkness of doubt, I don’t know about you but I just don’t feel like harping on that all the time. This time was different. This time instead of focusing on what I did not know, this time I focused on what did appear when we I took the step of faith. Some of the things that seemed to appear out of nowhere were the super support of a seemingly fearless wife, the unending encouragement of my family and friends and the guidance of my mentor as I attempt to leave his tutelage to put into practice all that I have learned. Now those are what I called stepping out on faith with a safety net of love. So the next time I find myself wondering why I am doing this or Jess at JessInTime shares with me her feelings of fear and doubt I will come back to this place of reflection and once again rink in the joy I am feeling about everything in this very moment.