Goodbye...

Today was one of the hardest days I have had in a very long time. After several years of partnership, friendship and relationship, today I had to say goodbye to my...

EGO. I can remember the first day my ego and I met and realized it would be a part of my life forever. I was in 6^th grade and attending the elementary school dance.  I asked this pretty young thing (literally LOL) to join me on the dance floor and knew when she saw my brand new JC Penny suit she had to say yes. I mean I was full of confidence that day that she was the one for me and after the dance we would be together forever.  However, what I didn't realize was she saw me pick my nose five minutes earlier. So when I asked her for the magical dance, she shouted out “No! Your gross”. I was devastated! But right then in the middle of my misery my ego came and introduced himself to me.  “Hello little man. He said. You don’t need her or anybody else. It will be me and you against the world.”

For years after that, I listened to my ego without question. When it was time to study for exams, my ego would tell me that I didn't need help even though I was failing class. When I failed (and I often did), my ego was right there telling me “It was their entire fault.” When persons tried to befriend me without any hidden agendas, my ego was right there to remind me that we didn't trust anyone. As a result of my relationship with my ego, I had to face some of the toughest challenges of my life all by myself. I hate to admit this but even when I was first introduced to my now incredible wife Jessica, I almost walked away because my ego convinced me that she would betray me. Check out how she walked with me through that dark time at JessInTime. Luckily for me, I was so awe struck by her, that I had no time to listen to my ego lie to me.

Well today was the day. As I was listening to my friend preach, I began to reflect on all the times, my ego got in the way of my blessing. Today was the day that, instead of listening to that negative voice that kept me isolated and alone for so long, I heard the voice of God tell me that it is never too late to start over. The voice told me to forget the past and start fresh and start anew. That is when I decided that it was time to end my relationship with my ego and embrace a relationship of Love that came with the gifts of a renewed vision of self, family and friends that God had given me since my birth.

So goodbye ego of my past and today I say to the world that awaits me… Allow me to reintroduce myself…